Yup

May 30, 2008 at 7:41 pm (Actors, life, teenagers) (, , , )

So i just got a job in child care! WOOO! It only pays $7 an hour but whatever, but its all good. Money rocks so I’ll take what I can get. My dad wants me to pick up a second job, buuuuut we’ll see. It depends how many hours I get on this one.

I’m supposed to be keeping a journal…hasn’t happened yet. Oops…ha…I’m such a slacker. But only when it comes to journals.

I watched a play the other day that made me realize what I was doing wrong in my acting, hopefully I’ll be able to be better next year! SEE I OBSERVED DAMN IT! I DID WHAT YOU ASKED! You know who you are…

On a side note: I’m now obsessed with Evil Dead the Musical…it makes me wish I could sing…just a little bit. Seriously the songs are incredibly catchy for being based off of a B movie from the 80’s. WOO Bruce Campbell. I bow to your superior awesome-ness.

…on another random note…we should seriously hop on this Zombie movie guys. I have a camera. We could seriously just run around in the woods and scream alot. And run chest first like that chick in Evil Dead (And almost ever horror movie ever made) who gets violated by the tree. Thats something you should never do when running from…well…anything really. Don’t run chest first. It’ll throw off your balance. And then you’ll get violated by possessed evil trees. Or an axe murderer.

Or you’ll just fall on your face, either way. Not fun.

Later yo’s!

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*Sigh* Photoshop…

November 30, 2007 at 3:56 am (Angelina Jolie, college, computers, Concerts, Driving, Fiction Plane, Joe Sumner, life, music, teenagers, Weight loss)

So I’m working on a photoshop presentation for English class. Not my favorite thing to do, I’d rather write paper any day. Its not that I don’t LIKE being creative, just not while using computers. I think technology hates me. Like ALLOT. I took a test online yesterday and the results never got sent in (YAY inquisit *rolls eyes*) THUS earning me a zero. Which make me UNBELIEVABLY happy let me tell you *Pushing the sarcasm button* *sigh*On the upside, Bon Jovi ROCKS and…so does Fiction Plane. I’m going to a Fiction Plane concert in C-bus next week, and I’m really excited. YAAAAAY Fiction Plane, AND They’re playing with Cold War Kids, which is awesome. All in all, I’m excited. Sure, I have to go to class the next morning, and I have to drive three hours to get to C-bus from here…but hey, I’m in college. I’m allowed to do stupid things THAT way in the future I can say “Yeah, this one time in college I drove three hours to se Fiction Plane when I had CLASS the next day…I ROCK…” My hallway is really loud…they’ve been screaming allot lately. Not sure why, I generally don’t ask. But it does get rather annoying at points.You know what else is annoying? Our elevators don’t work. Therefor I have to walk up 8 floors of stairs, like…all the time. And that sucks. I all ready lost 15 pounds! I don’t need to lose anymore!! Granted I may not be in shape but still…I think the fact that I now weigh like 125 pounds speaks for itself. I don’t need to weigh 120…or even 115. I’d look disgustingly thin and that just wouldn’t make me happy. I know hollywood seems to think that being able to see a persons bones is AMAZINGLY attractive, but really…its gross. Come on. Angelina Jolie’s arms…are disgusting. She may be pretty but her arms make me want to throw up. She needs to eat a damn cookie or something… that is all. Comment if you’d like! Later all!!! 

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Stuff…

October 18, 2007 at 8:17 pm (angst, Boys, college, life, love, teenagers)

I havn’t updated in quite a long time…sorry all!

So I’m going home this weekend!! YAY!!! ^_^ I havn’t been home in quite a long time…two months to be exact. I’m excited to see everyone.

Lots of stuff has happened since I last updated. I have a boyfriend now. He’s 25, and the sweetest guy ever. I like him allot, I wish he’d let me pay for stuff sometimes, cus I feel bad that he always pays…but thats something I’ll just have to keep working on.

He’s 6 years older then me…its a little hard to handle at times. Most of the time it doesn’t matter at all. I’m mature and he’s very careful around me…but sometimes I do sorta wish I was going out with someone my own age. Not enough to leave my relationship behind, I mean I REALLY like him and he really likes me and thats all that matters…its just weird sometimes…you know?

Boy called me today. I havn’t actually SPOKEN to him in like 5 months. SUre we talked over AIM, but it was weird to hear his voice. He called completely at random to. We’re gona hang out this weekend I think, hopefully it won’t cause to much angst…I’m commited to my boyfriend and now he has a girlfriend so we should be okay…but still…he’ll always ALWAYS be the boy that could have been…which is difficult. I mean I guess I still like him…thats a lie I DO still like him, but I’ve got to come to grips with the fact that we’ll never ever be together.

I’ve moved on. I’ve got a boyfriend now who I adore and who adores me. Thats all I need.

Its just weird he called me…

mhmm…

yay for angst.

I should finish packing so I can go home…Talk to ya’ll later and I’ll let you know what went on this weekend. yupyup!!

^_^

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Surefire ways to make yourself feel sick…

September 15, 2007 at 5:32 pm (coffee, college, life, teenagers)

Surefire ways to make yourself feel sick…and several other things I’ve learned…

1. stay up til 4am repeatedly when you KNOW you have to get up at 8:00

2. Stay up til 3am, get up at 8am…chug two starbucks double shots befor English class…and then not eat anything til like 1:00…

3. Chug a thing of milk befor English class…

4. Cleaning apparently…I cleaned yesterday and all it got me was a stuffed up nose…damn dust. Either I should give up or clean more often…dunno which I’d rather do. Clean more often I think…

…I’m sure there are more ways, I just havn’t done anything else to abuse myself by accident yet…

You know what else I learned…always have your umbrella…cus the ONE time you don’t have it with you…it will inevitably pour.

OH! and…try not to leave your shoes in random classrooms…it makes life difficult…

Annnnnd the best music to listen to if you wanna wake up is Mika. Not Breaking Benjamin…although they rock…

You know whats weird…I drank two double shot espresso things this morning…didn’t feel the slightest bit more energized. I’m worried that I’m just immune to caffein at this point…and if coffee won’t wake me up, what in the hell am I supposed to do? Grawr.

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Fiction Plane ROCKED!!!!

July 16, 2007 at 6:14 pm (Concerts, Fiction Plane, friends, Joe Sumner, life, music, teenagers)

So, as you may have guessed Kathryn and I were able to navigate our way to the Fiction Plane concert in Cinci, and I’m SOOOO GLAD WE DID!!!!

It was one of the best days of my life hands down. 😀 I’m uber happy. It makes up for any other crap thats gone down this year it really does. Let me tell you why. So…

I’m obsessed with Fiction Plane. If you havn’t noticed 😉 I’ve loved them since I got my hands on their first CD Everything Will Never Be OK. Which I’ve had since like 8’th grade. Needless to say I’ve liked them for a LONG time.

So Kathryn and I get to the concert, and it was a really pretty place. They had benches to sit on so we made our way to the front. After chatting for a bit, I notice a guy walk out from the stage area. I blinked for a bit as he walked past and sat down behind us. Suddenly it hit me. It was Joe Sumner, the lead singer. I freaked out, poked Kathryn in the side a bit, squaled, and debated going over and saying hi. No one else seemed to notice him really except the people sitting next to him. So I gathered up my courage and went to say hi.

Let me tell you I have never been so tounge twisted in my life. It was downright embaressing, but Joe didn’t seem to mind all that much. At least I hope not. I blathered on for awhile about how I liked Everything will never Be OK, but how the new CD Left Side Of the Brain was AMAZING. I think I told him it was addicting like ten times and which point he said “Nothing clinical right?” and I was like “No its a GOOD addicting” and the cinversation went on for awhile befor I said “I made my friend drive me two hours from Columbus to come see you…” ANd he was like “THANKS!” and I was like “Thank you for playing to close to Columbus.” which he didn’t really have a response for, he just shrugged and smiled. And then he shook my hand and I bounced off back to my seat and he walked back to the stage.

I then freaked out about how Joe Sumner had just shook my hand and was slightly concerned that I had come off as a freak. I actually told him “I’m sorry I’m such a dork” at one point in the conversation because I couldn’t seem to string two words together.

So then came the actual concert. They played a pretty short set, but as short as it was…it was amazing. Their energy as a band is fantastic. You can’t really take your eyes off of them. Its great. ANYWAY the music was amazing but sadly after about 40 minutes or so it came to an end. At which point someone was like “They’re signing autographs after the concert.”

So I bounded up to where there were signing with Kathryn and waited paitently. At least…as much as a 19 year old CAN. Especially a hyper, adrenaline filled ADD 19 year old can. Kathryn grabbed a poster since I didn’t have a CD, and FINALLY we got to the front of the line. The astounding part was that when we got there Joe looked at me and was like “HEY!! So thanks for driving two hours, and we’re glad we could play so close to Columbus…we’ll try to get there soon!” and I was like “AWESOME! And it was a GREAT SHOW!” and he was like “Thanks…” and we chatted some more (I won’t bore ya’ll with more mindless chatter…) and we said goodbye, when he shook my hand AGAIN. 😀 I didn’t see him offering his hand to anyone else (he probably did cus he’s cool like that, I just most likely blocked it out in attempt to make myself feel cool. Which I think I am…sort of.)

ANYWAY, not only did I shake his hand once but TWICE…so in conclusion I can die happy. The only thing that would make me happier is seeing them again.

yeah. I just find it awesome that not only is Joe cool all three members of the band are. They ROCK!

I’m done now I promise. And I’m sorry for any typos…my spell check thing doesn’t work…

LISTEN TO FICTION PLANE!! Press the button on this thing!

Talk to you later all!


Fiction Plane

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Off to Cinci for the day!

July 15, 2007 at 4:39 pm (Aaron Eckhart, Driving, Fiction Plane, friends, life, teenagers)

So I convinced my parents to let Kathryn and I go to Cincinnati for the day. But everyone’s alittle worries that we’re going to get shot or robbed or something. I’m pretty damn sure we’ll both be fine. The concert ends at 8:00 so its not like we’ll be driving around in the dark. It doesn’t get really dark til like 9:45.

But in case I get lost and die I request that I’m bauried with my iPod, and will someone please tell Sean Bean just how much I loved him? 😉

I’m joking, we’ll be fine. If we get lost we’ll lock the doors and I’ll call one of my 19 family members that could escort us out of the city.

I GET TO GO SEE FICTION PLANE!!! YAAAAY!!! 🙂 I’m SOOO excited!!! I hope this works out I really do. I just don’t want to Jinx it or anything. Mhmm. Rock on.

As for now, I’m waiting for my brother to get out of the shower, and my grandparents to come and visit befor I leave. Because they know their way around cinci better then I do. Yeah…

I ❤ Aaron Eckhart. Did I mention that to anyone else? I think I did. I’m just…saying it again befor I go because I have no idea how else to end this post.

yeah.

Later all!!

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I’m feeling…despondent…

June 15, 2007 at 3:05 am (Boys, despondent, feelings, friends, gay, life, love, Relationships, teenagers)

SO, I just went over to boys house to hang out with his sister Isabel.  Which was cool, because I love Isabel…but it felt wrong somehow.

 She doesn’t know about the whole thing with her brother, unless he were to have told her…which I don’t think he did. But I mean it felt odd to be watching a movie at his house because I know that had I said something (Or had HE said something I’m not ENTIRELY at fault here) then I could have been watching movies at his house for months! But NOOOOOO he has to be to shy…and I’m just plain STUPID.

Damn-it.

I hate boys.

Why can’t I get him out of my head. I think about him ALL the time. Well not ALL the time, thoughts of him don’t RULE my life or anything, but still. Its annoying.

You know what else annoys me? The thought that I’m the only one struggling with this. I mean do I make HIM despondent? Probably not. Although if I learned that I DID make him despondent I would be INCREDIBLY happy.

which is sad.

*Sigh*

You wanna hear something awkward? My gay guy friend has a crush on my straight guy friend…and I don’t know what to do about it.

Hurmph.

I hate boys.

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Guh…

June 13, 2007 at 1:47 pm (Dogs, Driving, life, Little brothers, Rabbits, Sleep, teenagers, Video games)

So, I was rudely awoken this morning by the sound of Bryan (My little brother) knocking on my door saying that I had to watch Sean (My Other little brother, who’s 5) because Bryan had driving lessons, So I got up.

And now I’m really tired because I inexplicably stayed up til 3:00 last night and since I woke up at 8:00 I’m running on 5 hours of sleep!! YAY!! Go me.

Well its summer, I didn’t know I had to get up today no one shared that bit of information with me.

So now I’m sitting at my dads computer typing and watching Sean play a Video game where he shoots at rabbits with a plunger…

Its sort of surreal really, watching a five year old shoot plungers at animated rabbits. But the rabbits have their OWN plungers and shoot back so…I guess its OK. Especially since you don’t ACTUALLY SHOOT them, with like a gun.

 And hey! There’s a rabbit wearing sunglasses and a bandanna so I guess its unrealistic anyway.

It kinda sounds like a dogs dream. Or maybe nightmare?? who knows.

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The soap opera ends…only to be continued.

June 9, 2007 at 3:15 pm (angst, Boys, friends, life, Parties, Relationships, teenagers)

So. Boy is officially gone. I think.

 I’m not really sure if he’s left yet…

But I’m not gonna like call and check. So We’ll just assume he’s gone.

I went to a grad party yesterday and both Boy and Liam were there. I was really happy because the last time we had spoken I had said goodbye really quickly and there was really no closure of any sort. Or at least any sort that I had wanted. But yesterday we ACTUALLY said goodbye. He gave me a hug, said he’d still have an Internet connection over the summer so “Don’t worry” and that I’d better come to the shows next year.

And then he was gone.

*Sigh* I proceeded to go over to Michelle and force myself to stop the tears that I knew were coming. I mean who cries at a grad party?? Really that would have been rude.

But it was still sad, and now there’s this feeling of like emptiness because well…he’s gone.

Yes I KNOW I’m melodramatic I’m sorry. He was the first guy that I really liked, that I KNOW liked me back. And I let him slip through my fingers.

Its tragic I tell you. TRAGIC!!!

But I guess its also a part of being a teenager.

At least now I know that I can get a guy to like me.

*Sigh* ANYWAY!!

My grad party is today, that should be interesting. There are alot of people who’ve told me they can’t come, but allot of people who’ve told me they will. I’m not expecting a huge turnout but my mom is…so we’ll see.

I have to deal with the relatives, whom I love don’t get me wrong. But some of them are so insane they deserve their own reality TV show. They make me laugh so it’s all good.

I should go make sure my mom isn’t having an aneurysm over something that isn’t going right…

Later all!! ❤

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I think my life should be turned into a TV show…

June 7, 2007 at 5:35 am (angst, friends, life, love, Relationships, teenage hormones, teenagers)

No really, and not just any TV show but like one of the melodramatic teenage ones that they show on The N or whatever the hell that network is.

 Whatever.

But no really.

I’ve been feeling sorta emo lately and it’s mostly because of boy. Ohhhh the things I could say about boy. Just when I think I’m over him, the world decides I’m not and everything comes crashing back down on my head like a gigantic tidal wave of teenage hormones and crushed hopes.

 I said I was feeling emo! Believe me now? I bet you do.

ANYWAY, I went to a grad party today and Boy was there. We sorta talked for awhile, but I mostly talked to his best friend, Liam (Who happens to be a good friend of mine as well). After awhile we both moved on to diffrent places in the back yard and I was able to make myself look less despondent. Or at least less like I was pining. Which I was. I won’t lie…there’s no point. So later on I ended up chilling on a hamock, which was huge and REALLY comfortable, with Erika. All was fine til boy and Liam came over and sat down. and by sat…I don’t really mean sat it was more like lie because who can really sit in a hamock?

ANYWAY there we were the four of us on this hamock, with me squished between Liam and boy. I mean I was on top of boy for like 15 minuets and it made me think of things that I COULD have had but can’t because…well the timing of life sucks.

All in all we just goofed off for a bit, he laughed at my story about how I ate crayons once when I was little (Which he said explained alot, hahaha) , and swore to me that my eyes have changed colors all this year.  Which strikes me as odd. Liam was like “You’re eyes are BLUE?!” and I was like…”Duh?” and then Liam swore to me that they were green awhile back, and Brown at the beggining of the year. Which boy backed up.

Why am I telling you this?? Dunno. *Sigh* ANYWAY!!!

Dave then came over and they tried to make room for him even though I highly dislike him for the most part, and Boy and Liam pulled me up higher on the Hamock so my shoulder was underneath Boys head.

And it was really comfortable.

God we fit so freakin well together, I mean I just feel RIGHT with him you know. and its AWFUL because I won’t see him again for a REALLY REALLY LONG TIME. S0 a relationship of any kind is OUT OF THE QUESTION.

Let me go back a bit, Boy and I got to know each other at the beggining of the year since we were both in theatre. He was in a show with me in January (Arsenic and Old Lace) and, according to Liam, he’s liked me ever since. I had a conversation with Boy a couple of weeks ago where he said he would have asked me out then but another girl had asked him to the Valentines day dance. So it never happened. And then he broke up with that other girl and we’ve been talking circles around each other ever since.

and it sucks.

Because we could have been together since January but neither of us said a friken word, and now its GONE. Because he leaves in two days for camp, and when he gets back from that camp he leaves for ANOTHER camp. Essentially he’s GONE until AFTER I leave for college.

*sigh* I hate life.

It makes me want to cry, I hate this feeling of what could have been. My advice for you is to take you’re chances and always SAY SOMETHING.

I wouldn’t be here now if I had. And it sucks.

wow I’ve rambled on alot.

Tp make things a bit more complicated, I think that sice I’ve been tryinging to get over boy, I’ve switched my feelings over to Liam.

Which may or may not be a bad thing.

I hate people…

but!! Good news I’M 19 NOW!! WOOOOOOO!!!!

I’ll post again later. Night all!!

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