*Sigh* Photoshop…

November 30, 2007 at 3:56 am (Angelina Jolie, college, computers, Concerts, Driving, Fiction Plane, Joe Sumner, life, music, teenagers, Weight loss)

So I’m working on a photoshop presentation for English class. Not my favorite thing to do, I’d rather write paper any day. Its not that I don’t LIKE being creative, just not while using computers. I think technology hates me. Like ALLOT. I took a test online yesterday and the results never got sent in (YAY inquisit *rolls eyes*) THUS earning me a zero. Which make me UNBELIEVABLY happy let me tell you *Pushing the sarcasm button* *sigh*On the upside, Bon Jovi ROCKS and…so does Fiction Plane. I’m going to a Fiction Plane concert in C-bus next week, and I’m really excited. YAAAAAY Fiction Plane, AND They’re playing with Cold War Kids, which is awesome. All in all, I’m excited. Sure, I have to go to class the next morning, and I have to drive three hours to get to C-bus from here…but hey, I’m in college. I’m allowed to do stupid things THAT way in the future I can say “Yeah, this one time in college I drove three hours to se Fiction Plane when I had CLASS the next day…I ROCK…” My hallway is really loud…they’ve been screaming allot lately. Not sure why, I generally don’t ask. But it does get rather annoying at points.You know what else is annoying? Our elevators don’t work. Therefor I have to walk up 8 floors of stairs, like…all the time. And that sucks. I all ready lost 15 pounds! I don’t need to lose anymore!! Granted I may not be in shape but still…I think the fact that I now weigh like 125 pounds speaks for itself. I don’t need to weigh 120…or even 115. I’d look disgustingly thin and that just wouldn’t make me happy. I know hollywood seems to think that being able to see a persons bones is AMAZINGLY attractive, but really…its gross. Come on. Angelina Jolie’s arms…are disgusting. She may be pretty but her arms make me want to throw up. She needs to eat a damn cookie or something… that is all. Comment if you’d like! Later all!!! 

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So…Tis time for an update.

November 10, 2007 at 5:44 am (angst, Boys, life, love, Mental illness, Relationships)

HEY!

So I need to update more often. Even though, I’m not too sure anyone reads these but whatever.

Everything with my boyfriend is all well and good. I mean…as well and good as it can be. He told me he loved me this week. I’m not exactly sure what to do. I mean…he’s my first boyfriend, we’ve only been dating for two months…I can’t say it yet. I hope he uderstands that. I mean…I’m damn sure he does, but at the same time I’d hate to dissapoint him in some way. I just….can’t. But he really is an awesome guy, he really cares about me and I like that. He bought me flowers just to make me smile…and it did.

In other less happy-ish news…my grandfather’s in the mental hospital. He got the flu awhile ago and I guess it started a landslide that ended in dementia. He can’t function anymore. He won’t drink, eat or even move on his own. They had him take a cognitive test of some point and he had to score a 7 to be allowed to be on his own…he scored a 4. He’s not even legally allowed to drive any more because he just can’t…function. He’s not even that old, and granted he’s unhealthy but still…the amount of time it took him to get this bad was astoundingly fast. I can’t even really stand talking to him anymore, he’s completely unaware of everything.

You know what the worst part of it is? I’m so SO afraid that the same things going to happen to my mom and then eventually me. I mean…it happened to my great grandmother, and its genetic right? I couldn’t stand to see my mom like that, it would kill me. And me personally? I’d rather be dead then be stuck in a nursing home from my 60’s on out. I hate seeing my grandfather like this. I hate it because I can’t do anything and I hate it because it seems like he doesn’t care…I just…hate it…I’m so afraid for him sometimes…

*sigh*

yeah…

Someone tell me something good? Thank you…

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