August 24, 2007 at 12:57 am (college, life)

So, I can feel myself slipping into the “I’m so awkward no one likes me…” thing all over again. I go through this every year, its just bad cus at the moment I only really have like 2 friends here.

I mean I talk to the theatre people but its like…I’m not one of them. They hang out in groups and stuff and I sit in my dorm room, unsure of what to do because I’m shy, and awkward and not as atractive as the rest of them.

It sucks, because I don’t want to be so down on myself, I want to be liked so badly but…hrmp. This is really hard to describe. I want to make friends I jsut don’t know how.



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August 20, 2007 at 2:41 pm (college)


So I havn’t updated since I left, which is bad of me. But OH WELL! I’ll update as I wait for the bathroom to stop being cleaned so I can go get a shower.

I moved into the dorms several days ago, and honestly, it was pretty easy. If it hadn’t of been 102 degrees out it would have been VERY easy. I got to Mysch to move in and my dad decided to wait on the grass with the majority of my stuff while I took a bag up and went to check out my room. I went up to my room and then stood there waiting for my mom, who was taking the elevator, and then all of a sudden three of the best looking guys I’ve ever seen showed up at my door. The one said “Is this your stuff?” And I was like “…yeah…” and I was confused until my dad showed behind them. I guess they were just grabbing peoples stuff anf moving it for them.

It was awesome.

I made a few friends, which is great.

Classes started today. My first class was English, which seems like it’ll be pretty damn cool. Its a writing class so all I gotta do is like…write. Which I think I’m good at. I DO have to get word on my computer somehow though, does anyone know how to do that? I don’t…

Anyways…I have Acting class next…so I should go change and stuff. More later!! Ta!

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Cus I’m LEAAAAAVING on a jet plane…

August 15, 2007 at 9:16 pm (college, Leaving Home)

Except I’m not really, I’m driving to College. Not flying. That’d be stupid to fly somewhere thats only two and a half hours away.

Yup, thats right I leave for Ball State in a little under 24 hours. Actually 18 hours from now I think.


Okay my panic attack is over (Thats a complete lie, but oh well.) I can’t believe I’m leaving so soon. Its crazy, I never thought it would arrive so quickly. I mean it feels like I just graduated from high school three weeks ago or something. I can’t believe I’m actually moving forward with life. OH MY GOD!!!

I’m excited.

and scared.

Wish me luck ya’ll!!!!

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August 6, 2007 at 9:05 pm (Uncategorized)

So, I’m chilling at Myrtle Beach with Janet and her family and such.

I’m having a pretty good time, which is slightly odd cus normally I HATE the beach. I mean…waves are awesome and all but I can’t stand it when sand gets everywhere and such. But the sand problem hasn’t been so bad. So everything is all good!

I’m slightly sunburnt wich sucks, but honestly I’d expect my sunburn to be like ten times as bad as it is right now so everything is cool.

I’m in a chris evans mood like…insanely so. But alas I have no Chris evans DVD’s they’re all at home. Oh well.

Ummmmm…I come home saturday and then OFF TO COLLEGE 4 DAYS LATER!!!

AHHHHHHHHH!!! Its so close now I can barely stand it. Its driving me a tad insane. I can’t believe I’m so close to being in college. I’m scared but really excited to go.

More later!!


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So…not that much going on…

August 1, 2007 at 12:07 am (college, Homesickness, life, Movies)

Yeah, as I said befor…not that much happening other then me giving in to my Joesph Fiennes obsession. I have an obsession with J names for some reason….whatever. ANYWAY, I spent my day watching Shakespear in Love. Great movie that…Makes me cry every time…or well…almost, there may not be tears, but whatever.

Uuuummmmm…I saw a trailer for a Viggo Mortensen movie the other day that looked really good. Twas called Eastern Promises. I’d love to see it but I’ll be in Indiana when it comes out and I’m betting its a limited release movie and we won’t get it in Muncie. I’ll just have to wait til it comes out on DVD I guess.

Ummmmmmm…wow thats alot of Umm’s. Whatever. I go one vacation with Janet on friday then after that I go to Ball state. OHHHHH MY GOOOOOOOOD. Its so close now, like I’m on the edge of a panic attack I know I am. I’m gonna freak out!!!!

I’m still a bit weary of being away from home, but Its all a part of growing up right? I mean, I wanna travle in life and it has to start somewhere, I can’t always live at home. I’d never get anywhere. Which would really be a pity I LOVE going to other countries and such.

Anyway, I just thought I would update as I havn’t in awhile so…there it is.

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